DEPRESSION
So for a while I’ve been MIA mostly because my health had me down, however yesterday I opened my mails and saw the piece written by a darling friend, she titled it depression and I knew I just had to write on this one, I hope this piece does help someone dealing with depression or someone headed towards depression find their strength and their happy once again. Personally and from my experience and understanding depression stems from two things, but before I go into these let me explain simply what depression is according to Encarta dictionary depression simply refers to a state of unhappiness and hopelessness. Basically it’s that I’ve come to the end of the road kind of feeling where you’re not sure you can take one more step further without losing your mind.
Two things I’ve come to realize cause depression and would like to share is this,
DISHONESTY:
You see it might seem like such a trivial thing to say that depression severally springs from lies but believe me when I say it does, you see when you lie to people you’re left to live up to your lie and when you can’t live up to it you’re likely to fall into depression, let me give an instance someone once said “if you have a thousand naira and you claim to have ten thousand naira, you’d spend the thousand naira and spend the remaining nine thousand naira you don’t have” lol I think I heard that in one of the numerous Yoruba movies I’ve watched, basically dishonesty leaves you living above your means and this can cause you depression. Also there’s lying to yourself, if there’s any form of deceit worse off it has to be lying to yourself, many times we’re told the truth and then we go ahead to tell ourselves what we feel like hearing and then reality strikes and we’re looking for who to blame so we lie to ourselves that we’re not to blame, I think that was just confusing so let me explain a bit; one time someone said something to me but I didn’t like what he said so I told myself what I wanted to hear and told myself that’s what he told me, now along the line something went wrong and if not because I had told myself what I did it would have been easier on me but because I had lied to myself I was hurt, I was depressed and mad and losing my mind all at the same time, but I wasn’t ready to tell myself the truth so I continued with my lying until depression was pushing me to extreme heights and then one evening I picked my journal and wrote the truth of all that had happened after that I read it aloud to myself now it wasn’t funny telling myself I was the liar and I was to blame but it did something important for me it set me free. You see scripture says “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free” it means “you shall know and live the live and the lie would forever leave you in bondage” depression is a bondage and truth would set you free indeed. So yeah while we keep up with the lies depression keeps up with us. It’s that simple.
DISTRACTION:
You see there’s so much to break our heart on this earth alone, I mean look at the economy of Nigeria, look at new diseases and infections every day, just last week I had a test run and the results ehn just left me wondering, but then something I realized is this; if my joy is dependent on what happens or what doesn’t happen I’m on a looooooooooong thing; because today it’s raining pouring you can’t even see a hint of sunshine and by morning the sun is shining looking as though it hadn’t rained the day before. So distraction here occurs when we take our eyes off Jesus, I remember in scripture when God’s people were attacked by snakes, God instructed his servant (Moses) to make a pole and place a serpent on it that when anyone is bitten by a snake such a one should look up to the serpent on the pole and he would live. If someone was bitten so long as the person looked upon the snake that was lifted up they would live but if such a one got distracted and looked(focused) on the site where the snake had bitten them they would die. Today the son of God (Jesus) is lifted up that we may look up to him and live, if we allow distraction we would look to other people or things for our living and then they fail us and then we’re disappointed and honestly the distance between disappointment and depression isn’t all that wide. so if our eye if fixed on anything aside our God depression is not farfetched, prophet Hababkuk said “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior” you Joy should be in God, your rejoicing should be in God it’s the way to stay above depression in the world we live in, now it’s all good to have stuff and people in your life but God has to be your focus, people leave, things become obsolete, life happens everything changes but God? He’d constant, in our ever changing world he’s the only one that’s never changing.
So for a while I’ve been MIA mostly because my health had me down, however yesterday I opened my mails and saw the piece written by a darling friend, she titled it depression and I knew I just had to write on this one, I hope this piece does help someone dealing with depression or someone headed towards depression find their strength and their happy once again. Personally and from my experience and understanding depression stems from two things, but before I go into these let me explain simply what depression is according to Encarta dictionary depression simply refers to a state of unhappiness and hopelessness. Basically it’s that I’ve come to the end of the road kind of feeling where you’re not sure you can take one more step further without losing your mind.
Two things I’ve come to realize cause depression and would like to share is this,
DISHONESTY:
You see it might seem like such a trivial thing to say that depression severally springs from lies but believe me when I say it does, you see when you lie to people you’re left to live up to your lie and when you can’t live up to it you’re likely to fall into depression, let me give an instance someone once said “if you have a thousand naira and you claim to have ten thousand naira, you’d spend the thousand naira and spend the remaining nine thousand naira you don’t have” lol I think I heard that in one of the numerous Yoruba movies I’ve watched, basically dishonesty leaves you living above your means and this can cause you depression. Also there’s lying to yourself, if there’s any form of deceit worse off it has to be lying to yourself, many times we’re told the truth and then we go ahead to tell ourselves what we feel like hearing and then reality strikes and we’re looking for who to blame so we lie to ourselves that we’re not to blame, I think that was just confusing so let me explain a bit; one time someone said something to me but I didn’t like what he said so I told myself what I wanted to hear and told myself that’s what he told me, now along the line something went wrong and if not because I had told myself what I did it would have been easier on me but because I had lied to myself I was hurt, I was depressed and mad and losing my mind all at the same time, but I wasn’t ready to tell myself the truth so I continued with my lying until depression was pushing me to extreme heights and then one evening I picked my journal and wrote the truth of all that had happened after that I read it aloud to myself now it wasn’t funny telling myself I was the liar and I was to blame but it did something important for me it set me free. You see scripture says “you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free” it means “you shall know and live the live and the lie would forever leave you in bondage” depression is a bondage and truth would set you free indeed. So yeah while we keep up with the lies depression keeps up with us. It’s that simple.
DISTRACTION:
You see there’s so much to break our heart on this earth alone, I mean look at the economy of Nigeria, look at new diseases and infections every day, just last week I had a test run and the results ehn just left me wondering, but then something I realized is this; if my joy is dependent on what happens or what doesn’t happen I’m on a looooooooooong thing; because today it’s raining pouring you can’t even see a hint of sunshine and by morning the sun is shining looking as though it hadn’t rained the day before. So distraction here occurs when we take our eyes off Jesus, I remember in scripture when God’s people were attacked by snakes, God instructed his servant (Moses) to make a pole and place a serpent on it that when anyone is bitten by a snake such a one should look up to the serpent on the pole and he would live. If someone was bitten so long as the person looked upon the snake that was lifted up they would live but if such a one got distracted and looked(focused) on the site where the snake had bitten them they would die. Today the son of God (Jesus) is lifted up that we may look up to him and live, if we allow distraction we would look to other people or things for our living and then they fail us and then we’re disappointed and honestly the distance between disappointment and depression isn’t all that wide. so if our eye if fixed on anything aside our God depression is not farfetched, prophet Hababkuk said “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior” you Joy should be in God, your rejoicing should be in God it’s the way to stay above depression in the world we live in, now it’s all good to have stuff and people in your life but God has to be your focus, people leave, things become obsolete, life happens everything changes but God? He’d constant, in our ever changing world he’s the only one that’s never changing.
Now that said, its honestly easier said in this case written than done, I look at my life and how certain times examination results have led me to certain heights of depression because my joy came from the fact that I was doing fine in school, other time I’ve fallen far because my finances were down, because I lost people I love, it even surprised me when I realized that not even your spouse or children should be the source of your joy.
If you’re battling with depression I’d like you to know these two reasons may not exactly be the cause I know there’s a thing such as clinical depression too, however I hope after reading this you take out time to evaluate yourself, if you need someone to walk you through this please do ensure you get someone especially to help you be honest.
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